family tradition/Prevention

Aug 25,2009

Hello,it is beautiful day in Pa.Well so far i have dealt with my issues(personal)Today i went to a group on Relapse Prevention and had a very good session with co-addicts,we were trowing ideas and proven ways of staying CLEAN,it is so easy to say i do this or that and not follow tru with it and in the other hand it is so Rewarding when we succeed at it.I personally have chose the blogging way or better said journal ling,i was given to me as a suggestion and thank God i followed tru with it.We in life don't get too many chances of succeeding a lot of say you only get one shot and we better recognize it and needless to say sometimes we don't even see it,,,,WOW and it kills you,hurts,blind and it destroys you.So today i decided to give Na /AA a look a very deep look.I am 50 years old and lucky to be alive so is time to wake up.I want to live my last 10 or 15 years on the positive side of life is hard road but it could be done,you see i don't want to live that addiction life NO MORE,a lot of us in addiction don't honestly desire it, but we are not educated enough on staying clean & sober1.is a 24 hr job 2.is a lot of work 3.it has it share of disappointments 4.don't have a support system and the list goes on on on,enough is enough once we make the decision and have the desire to stay clean the sky is the limit to start and then it`s ,infinite.You know we as addicts have a wealth of knowledge that needs to be put to use fast ,for the ones that are making the inroads of exploring addiction we old timers or generation X need to derail this train as fast and effective as possible,we have a lot red tape along the way but so what?when have we not!please for the ones that started it please don't give up help is on the way,always remember "nothing happens by accident",,,,,,love and kisses

FEBRUARY 13 2011

Hello everyone is been a while i had written anything,i have been going tru some rough times but we all do , FAMILY is a strong word it identifies a group of people tied togheter by one strong desire to belong and love one another right?my reason to write this blogs is to relief myself of hurt!confusion,were am i at and most of all my desire to be around my family?I have kind of given up on my desired to fight.My wife is sick even do she still try to be self suffficient but is painfull to see her struggle ,we are older and not as fast as before and is hard to take in the change.,financial,personal,spiritual.is only one good thing i have taken my health better,my old bad habits,memories is what we take to our graves so they say? i am having this big issue with my wife nephew,the kid does not want to better himself,he has been given options but he lies so we don`t know what else to do and honestly i don`t want to deal with it and i don`t have to.We gave him the help that we could after he`s mother died,and this was his behaviour before she died and i was warned about it by the step-father and i did not wanted to believed what i heard but it all became true and some more.I will give him till MAY to go and that is going to be it-final and if that dont work the law will be the next step and i hope it does not get to there-you see i am not afraid or fearful of him,he`s my wife nephew but this is my home!!!and this will end Robert we gave you the chance we are not helping you or us so it`s time for a change finally wish the best of luck! and grow up