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i just got back from my parents and low and behold one of my family member broke my trust again ,i always think is going to change but it does not.i have been out of work for a while(1 year)and it`s terrible,i am trying to look for other ways but,,,,,,,,,hmmmm

is hard when all you have is HS grad.when you are the man in your home is very humbling.the pix shows great moments with my wife and youngest son,at the racetrack at jersey (at co).THE POINT IS DON'T EVER TAKE NOTHING FOR GRANTED.
3/26/10
Problems arise tru your kids or young adults,this morning i woke up to my youngest son and his girl fighting about some girl texting him and her asking him for the girl to stop and he did not do it,the rest is terrible yelling ,disrespect,cursing,name calling and us trying to make him understand that the relashionship is not healthy,but they are in love for the wrong reasons and it won`t work ever.She out grew him and it is what it is and before someone gets hurt is better to break up.
4/6/10 Hola!
Hi,today i write or update my thoughts tru this format which i find great and is not with PAIN and suffering that i do it.Today like every day i get up from my restless days before this one,you see i am not complaining but it could be difficult at times going tru it like i do depression,low self steam and those thoughts that depress people get,yesterday my daughter in law parents were in a accident and they got hurt pretty bad specially Mom(no seat belts)it seems that it is real bad i personally not been able to see them and needless to say my head whent on a crazy thought hunt if you know what i mean ,i need 3 months to get out house arrest and then 2 years of probation +7,000 pesos
and buya ! done with it.Sometimes i stare at nothing for hours,i think of what i would do different next time with my life and decisions and i can`t even think correct or in order ,i am all over the place and yes! i have been very stress out with litle or no tolerance towards any one or anything and is followed by anger for letting myself get to this point and putting my loved ones tru this.My friend drugs are the human scorn or poison ,don`t get me wrong some people were born to live the life, others done it for neccesity or a means to a way for the time being
but we get caught in the glamour of it and yes ther`s something addictive about it,it is independence and adrenalin rush that keeps you going in the life,specially if you got or believe on Robin Hood syndrome,do right with dirty money.You see i help a lot of people with the chance that otherwise it would not been a chance for them to have books,money for school,rent, xtra money for xmas,food,clothes etc,,, cause not everyone is as equally bless and yes you may say go work for it or sacrifice and that my friend is what we do from the day we are born SACRIFICE,if you are not born into this cycle of life you would not understand the way of thinking,the life,suffering which one may say" you look for it" dont cry now!we know that and we live tru it some of us make it some don`t.I look in the newspaper or the web the white collar crimes and they have some kind of allure to it because is not the crime you hear in the news from my side of the tracks in other words is okay to steal millions ,is not right to survive in our own environment. By no means i am condone it but it is what it is ,even for being a criminal there`s prejudice think !.
I cry and worry about things,like today i heard about the 25 miners that lost there life and i got teary eye why? cause i am still human and i care more than a lot of so call citizens.Thank you for letting me shared this short thoughts of desperation.