This is one of the hardest things i done in a while-which tell my nephew to leave the house for good 1.when we brought him here the deal was,,,,,-school,clean your room and trow garbage twice a wk that`s it 2.the first year he failed- -i was warned by his step-father but i gave the kid the benefit of doubt,WRONG again , 3.he lies like is no tomorrow,i think and i am right by saying that he also takes what don`t belong to him- very bad habits 4. so he`s been told to leave our home and grow up somewhere else,he made all this happen by not meeting his side of the deal for 3 years he failed school WHAT A WASTED OF TIME! 5. I cant do it no more dont have the energy or will to keep on going and waiting for something to happen.I wish him the same wish like always for him to make it and wake the fuck up. April 6,2011
When you realize as a parent that your kid has some disturbing character traits it takes your breath ,soul,morale,hopes and etc,,,,,,, away for good and you still hope somewhere they turn it for the better but deep down you know is not going to happen ever it` s frustrating to say the least.God why me ? you ask yourself and then you get it ! why not? in the last 3 years i have taken a beating personally,family wise,financially,spiritually and all for some purpose that i don`t know yet ,but i am praying is positive.My son doesn`t get it,it`s taken him a lot of time to be that human being that i hope, well! wishful thinking.but a man that abuse other people and think he is entitle to respect is very erratic in his ways and would never change.He always thinks" is not my fault" and he can`t be more wrong.just whatever you are going to do with your life don`t do it in my home ever cause you have cause me enough bullshit already and i am not going to deal with it again!!!!!!!!!
4/22/2011
Hello,just another day in the life of worried,angry,hurt and tired.Again it happened! my son SCREW UP again ,he put his fucking hands on another woman or girl,, and this is not acceptable by him or anyone(is a total disgrace).right now i am too upset to put on words the way i FEEL.
Hi today i will try to write again what i started yesterday,like i said before i am so angry at my son for reasons that you will figure out tru my words and sad to say is not great!!!,i am so drained cause people that don`t know "us will judge" ,,,,,continuation to the anger inside me for the things that happens when things don`t change.I never in my lifetime would imaging someone that shared create would be such an abuser and then blame it on psychological issues,BS no believe by me on that subject NONE!.My wife is drained,i am in disbelief but belief is happening cause i see it with my eyes.what i see from his behaviour is that is OK cause he feels that is our duty to fix all his created problems not him and he really believes it,but i am here to let him know is over! i don`t want him to visit us cause he will think everything is OK when is not OK and it will never be OK,i gave in so many times and look the other way and by that i mean trying to make it better ,by again trying . Have ignored my own issues and is getting me so depressed again,honestly he or anyone else cares? NO.Icome home and stay away from everyone,dont talk ,dont share.My friends and family is lonely in my heart and soul.Sometimes i share it with Nancy and we get into a confrontation cause i know maybe shes tired of me or everything.I hope someday Nancy will have a chance to share this words with me"maybe"tru all i have stayed clean and done what i am supposed to do as far my addiction is concern
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